What do you do when you don’t know what you want to do?
I have recently been making conscious decisions to learn, and do things that I am not very good at. With my recent sporting endeavours I have learnt that the things I think I cannot do, or am bad at, I can learn or improve with just a tiny bit of effort.
“I am always doing that which I cannot do, in order that I may learn how to do it.” – Pablo Picasso
What I have found is it is the first leap that takes the extra effort – or more often – extra courage. My recent leap was leaving my job, after telling myself that I need to keep moving, to keep learning. I feel like I am at the next stage of my career and I want to be in a new environment where I can learn and feel inspired.
A leap can even be setting yourself a private challenge. For example, I have made a resolution to write more – on this blog – but also I have enrolled in a free online creative fiction class. I currently have no plans to share it with anyone (so best not to ask!) but actually doing it is taking a lot of effort on my part to get over the idea that I can’t.
The next problem I have is sticking with it. As you can probably tell, I am currently experimenting with my illustration style. I find it hard to stick to one style as I quite often see a new technique tutorial or just have too much fun experimenting.
And sometimes the best thing you can do is experiment! The reason I have made this promise – ‘to consciously learn’ – to myself is simply because I don’t really know what I want to do, and so the only real solution to this is to give everything a go, and say yes to opportunities as they come!
“I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be.” – Douglas Adams
Maybe, one of these leaps will take me somewhere I need to be, but for the meantime I will just enjoy the experience.